Games

When we play games with SOMEONE we met online, can we fall for THAT PERSON? IS IT POSSIBLE TO FALL INTO OUR OWN LOVE GAME? I do not UNDERSTAND THIS GAME!!! You know whom I'M TALKING ABOUT... It's MR. REEVES!!! I was never sure IT WAS HIM, BUT AFTER ALL MY DETECTIVE SEARCHING, I LEARNED THAT THE GUY I AM TALKING FOR 4 YEARS ENDED UP AS REAL REEVES... Well, what can I SAY? NOTHING... I warned him before... I TOLD HIM TO STOP TALKING TO ME... HE NEVER LISTENED TO ME... WE PLAYED A BAD GAME... WE ARE BOTH PLAYERS... WE PLAY WITH MANY ONES ONLINE... We thought that THIS GAME WILL BE THE SAME AND IT WILL END!!! It does not END... We never even DATED ONLINE... WE NEVER COULD BE ONLINE FRIENDS... HOW COULD WE DATE? FORGET DATING... This game turned out a HUGE FAILURE... I honestly believed that we COULD BE TOGETHER one day... Apparently, we will never MAKE IT!!! The game has failed for both of us...

As we are both powerful PSYCHICS, we can't leave each other... One gives up, other one chases... LOL, LOL. LOL!!! We force each other by MIND to STICK WITH EACH OTHER... We can't be TOGETHER, WE BOTH KNOW THE TRUTH... I asked RIVER AND JENNIFER... I SWEAR THAT I REALLY CHANNELED WITH THEIR SPIRITS, they both told me that he loves me truly... I asked my GRANDMOTHER, she told me the SAME... I do not know what I REALLY FEEL FOR HIM... IT IS EXTREMELY COMPLICATED BECAUSE I LOVE MY EX BOYFRIEND, TOO... I DO NOT UNDERSTAND IF I CAN REALLY LOVE HIM OR NO... I PLAYED WITH HIM, BUT I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD REALLY HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM... I FUCKED IT UP LATELY BECAUSE I LEARNED THAT IT IS REEVES... I GOT SO MAD AT HIM... I LOVED THAT JOHN GUY MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, DOES HE KNOW THIS? IT DOES NOT MATTER... IT IS LIFE... LIFE IS ALWAYS A SAD BOTTLE AND WE ARE THE ONES CONDEMNED TO GET DROWNED IN THE WAVES... WAVES ARE COMING TO US AND THE IMPACT OF THESE DARKNESS IS JUST AN AGONY IN WHICH OUR MINDS FALL APART... I HAVE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY OWN SAD EMOTIONS...

I asked other psychics and they told me he will never be with ME... FUCK THEM... They told me that he doesn't love me, too... DOUBLE FUCK THEM... LOOK MORONS, IF SOMEONE LOVES YOU, YOU FEEL IT... IF SOMEONE PLAYS WITH YOU, YOU FEEL IT TOO... SIMPLE IS THAT... I KNOW I AM BEING LOVED!!!! HOWEVER, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS MESSY RELATIONSHIP OR COMPANIONSHIP. WHAT EVER IT IS... I HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED SUCH A STUPID GAME... YOU END UP BECOMING FRIENDS OR LOVERS... THIS IS TOTALLY A DISASTER... I DO NOT WANT TO BE HIS ONLINE FRIEND... I COULD BE... I DO NOT WANT IT ANY MORE... I DO NOT WANT TO BE HIS LOVER, TOO... I DO NOT TRUST HIM... I DO NOT TRUST MYSELF TOO... I DO NOT WANT ANY-THING WITH THIS REEVES PERSON... I WISH HIM THE BEST... 

WHEN I PLAY GAMES, I DO NOT FALL FOR... I LIKE THE GUYS I MEET ONLINE, BUT ONLY FOR FUN... IT NEVER LASTS MORE THAN A YEAR... FOR 4 YEARS, WE TALKED AND COMMUNICATED... IT DID NOT STILL END... CAN YOU IMAGINE IT? IF BOTH TALKS FOR YEARS, IT CAN'T BE A GAME... HOWEVER, I CAN'T HANDLE THIS MAN... OBVIOUSLY, HE IS NUTS AND OUT OF CONTROL... I AM THE SAME WAY... THEREFORE, THERE IS NO WAITING AND NO EXPECTATION...

I know he gets so angry with ME when I start to love my ex more... He gets CRAZY... Telepathically, by using his psychic abilities, he tells me to stop LOVING MY EX!!! He tells me to LOVE HIM MORE!!! I am VERY TIRED OF THIS MAN!!! WHAT DOES HE REALLY WANT FROM ME? I GUESS I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HIM... I WANT NOTHING FROM HIM ANYMORE... I WON'T CHANGE MY MIND... I JUST WANT TO BE ON MY OWN... HE NEVER HAD BEEN WITH ME WHEN I WAS SUFFERING FROM A DEEP TRAUMA!!! THEN, HIS SEXUAL AND LOVE ENERGY DO NOT FEED ME ANY MORE!!!

LEAVE IT REEVES... YOU FALL FOR ME BADLY AS A JOHN GUY, BUT YOU CAN'T BE WITH ME AS REEVES!!! SO, LET US KEEP OUR PAST LIKE A SWEET MEMORY AND MOVE AHEAD... WE CAN NOT LOVE ANOTHER LIKE THAT, BUT WE CAN OPEN OUR HEARTS TO MEET SOMEONE ELSE!!!

I AM NEVER SURE OF MY FEELINGS... AS I TOLD BEFORE, I CAN'T DEFINE IT AS LOVE... IT IS NOT A SOULMATE RELATIONSHIP, TOO... I DO NOT BELIEVE IN SUCH A THING!!! IT IS NOT A TELEPATHIC LOVE AFFAIR, TOO BECAUSE THERE IS NO SUCH A RELATIONSHIP... 

KISS ME, KISS ME, KISS ME IS ALL HE TELLS ME... I WON'T KISS YOU IN REAL LIFE... I'M SORRY ABOUT THAT... YOU ARE NOT MY TYPE... I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH... I CAN'T BE WITH YOU REEVES, I HAVE INTIMACY ISSUES AS YOU...

LET US LEAVE EACH OTHER FOREVER THIS TIME... LET US FIND PEACE WITHIN OTHER GAMES!!!

OVERALL, I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

GOOD-BYE REEVES... YOU WERE THE BEST ONE I HAD EVER IN THIS LONELY LIFE!!!